bubye

chemical engineering

ews is tomorrow! hopefully things will go smoothly. the giant ball is well on its way, but the pins havent even been planned out yet. can we finish in time?? after ews i REALLY need to find a way to catch up on my sleep. but on tomorrow i have a university registration!! hmm...not sleeping then either. i'll die if i'm faced with any more tests than i already know before this. upsr, pmr, spm, etc. studying start maybe next week. i'll see how it turns out soon enough! stupid stupid stupid. dont like tests. and while i'm on the subject, i dont like exams either. the sem exams are going to be the death of me. sem exams are back to back. please let me get through this...

gonna miss u guys seriously like hell..

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

disebabkan cokey telah bersusah payah menulis tentang diriku yg kacak di blog beliau maka aku dengan berbesar hati akan menulis tentang perihal beliau sepanjang bersama aku bersekolah lima tahun di stj di blog aku pulak..di samping itu aku juga akan menceritakan tentang perihal rakan sekelas semasa form five..x leh nak cerita pasal semua orang coz tengah busy..ade masa aku tulis pasal budak laen pulak..gamba2 dicuri dari myspace herman dan acoi..kira halal ek..??

cokey - where do i begin??i can write alot of stuff bout dis dude coz i literally ‘grew up wif him’…one of my longest friendship and knew him since i was form 1..been chillin eating hangin out and sleeping at his crib(dorm) ever since…has the ability to read me like a book and knows my every move…selalu kacau dia tapi no matter wut always end up being ok balik(hope sampai ke mati) dis dude is the one who introduced me to most of my friends today….he’s the DSL modem of the connection(hmmm…cool metaphor) the link to my circle of friends…he’s d one who always comes up with bright ideas and my pemberi semangat(biasa la nak jadi politician kena la pandai tabur ayat manis hehehe) will be that ’somebody’ one day…insyallah

nape - aka napeleon..hahah…my shadow…my activity partner..he knows me best…my likes and dislikes…he knows all of my secrets(ko pecah rahsia aku,aku pecah rahsia kau muehehe) a good listener(he’s my ears utk dipinjamkan) and always there to give me advices…soft spoken infront of d ladies tapi bile depan member2…mulut boleh tahan paisey hehehe and always d one to gelak cover2/ala alien…will always be d one to pull me back down to earth whenever im lost in space…thanks bro!

acoi- cool bro…knew him d first day i arrived at school…the one i always bitch about with…he’s d guy who i know i can share serious things with….u’d be surprise how a dude dis TALL holds big thoughts…i call him acoi ‘si panjang’ coz he has the ability to see things before they happen…sempat lari sblom warden datang..cam sial..entah ilmu ape die pakai...always has concerns about the little things which can eventually turn out to be big problems…if only u could come out wif your big solutions…u’ll make it big in life…but dun worry u still have time to work on it…the quiet one in d group tapi bile ade point mmg mulut boleh tahan gampang (tapi berani ngan aku je hehe) owh he’s good at fixing things

empat dari kanan

K.N - MULUT DIA NI BOLEH TAHAN….mengalahkan makcik…mmg laser nak mampos…he could bitch at u it makes u wanna cry…stok tak menjawab punya…i call him ‘king of menganjing’…but today he’s more calmed and at peace…maybe its because he has his gf to layan his bitching hehehe u know im kiddin bro!!k.n is more of a laidback friend…always provide the simplest and logical solutions which u cant really think of…and good at giving me ideas and to see things in a different perspective(think out of the box??)

aswad - mr raja hitam..used to be known as ‘mat kepoh’…used to be my transport back in d ol’ days…always the one to update me wif interesting stories…aswad knows it all…and always leave me questioning "mane mamat ni dapat cerita2 ni sume"….but i guess he has his sources….dis dude never fails to make me laugh….mr joker yang pandai berkata2…a real ladies man some might say coz of the way he treats d ladies…gentleman ke bang??without aswad life would be dull because no story…

boleng - mamat nie our new recruit…back then when i first got to know him i thought to myself "sape laa dia ni mcm bagus sgt" but now when i really got to know him he is a real nice dude inside out…really got to know him during two years in the same class…he can really crack me up wif his funny attitude….one thing i respect bout dis guy is he has the highest level of confidence(especially when it comes to d ladies) pd mmg slamber…n now he is getting more and more gedang…makan ape tu brotha??hehehe

mattop - big guy…wif big principals…very committed in wuteva he wants to do…u can tell dat one day he’s gonna be a real somebody coz of the way he brings himself…seen less of him these days but whenever he’s in town he’ll pick things up right where he left em…never an awkward moment with him around…and u know whenever he’s back things turn to be more happening coz he’ll be d one organizing stuffs and things to do coz dis big guy is filled wif fun…oi when u gonna be back here for good??hehehe

nasi lemak

My heavy meal was nasi lemak and telur mata kerbau which was at 12pm and since then, I haven't ate anything.

YOU KNOW WHY ?

I'll tell you. Anything that goes in my mouth will eventually comes out from my mouth. I'm not saying like after a few hours it comes out, it comes out right after I finish my food. What a waste, right ? So, I only drink water and water and water and more water and more water and more water and most water, then...

I PUKE IT ALL OUT.

What the fuck ? Why is this happening to me ? Yeah, bloody concussion. I felt like ripping my head off and just take out my brains and wash it. I bet all the pain will go away. I felt like committing suicide but that's just my point of view. Seriously, I'm hungry but I can't eat cause at the end of the day, I ended up puking at the toilet bowl. FUCK FUCK FUCK ! The pain really hurts my head especially at the neck. Its like there's a very long wire from my neck till my left brain, and when it zaps ? IT JUST ZAP MY HEAD REAL HARD THAT SOMETIMES I FELT LIKE FALLING ON MY KNEES. Yeah, I collapsed just now, in my room. My parents and my siblings weren't even home and so practically, I was alone.

I was in my room checking some storybooks and suddenly, BAM ! I just fell and fainted on the floor. Its like I'm really in a deep sleep but I don't I was asleep cause the moment I woke up, I felt this very i-dont-know-how-to-describe pain all over my head, like it comes all the way from my neck up to head and it really hurts on the left. Like someone hit me with a baseball bat. I think I was lying on the floor more than 2 hours cause when I woke up its like 5pm. I heard someone knocking on my door, so that's how I woke up. Fucking piece of shit, aye ?

My sister said I look like a piece of shit today. Thanks for the heads up, adik ! Haha. I wasn't offended at all cause she's right. I looked like shit. My face was like really pale. Yeah, I look like...I don't even act like myself today. Awesome babi ! I felt like crying because it comes and go ): I'm done whining now. haha.

futsal

kasut lame..damn dah koyak but still nak pakai ke..??

A little update. We only had two games today.

We lose 1 point for the first game, we were leading but don't know what happened.

I didn't play the first one. We won second game, 30-19. I was like WOW.

So, our game finished at 11.30am. And we had 'sesi berkenalan' with amri and syuk

(banyak kali jumpe baru nak kenal). Awesome people. I remembered the first week

we played with them, they called me 'abang''

Amri is the same age as me and syuk is 19. So, today we all laughed about it. HAHA.

i got my self a new pair of nike..wahahaha(golak kojam)

terkena

tagged

001. Real Name: *secret*

002. Nickname(s): kacak, ensem

003. Age: 18

004. Horoscope: virgo.

005. Male or Female: male.

006. Elementary: science school.

007. Middle School: science school.

008. High School: science school.

009. College School: uitm .

010. Hair colour: black.

011. Long or Short: short.

012. Loud or Quiet: quiet.. *shy* teehee..

013. Sweats or Jeans: jeans.

014. Phone or Camera: phone lah.

015. Health Freak: seasonal.

016. Drink or Smoke: neither. teehee..

017. Do you have a crush on someone: erm nope.

018. Eat or Drink: both.

019. Piercings: never.

020. Tattoos: not at the mo.

021. Social or Anti-Social: social.

022. Righty or lefty: left.

023. First piercing: aiya..berapa kali mau cakap.

024. First relationship: 16.

025. First Best Friend: haha to many. *shy*

026. First Award: kindergarten.

027. First Kiss: *shy* teehee.. (im bored already T_________T)

028. First Pet: tadpole. my cousin told me thats what baby mermaids looked like. she sucks!!

029. First Big Vacation: bandung.

030. First Love at first sight: erm siti nurhaliza haha wtf. T___T

031. First Big Birthday: didnt we all had that for at least once in our life?

032. First Surgery: the removal of my wisdom tooth(?) I SWEAR IT WAS EVIL!

033. First sport you joined: sprinting.

034. Orange or Apple juice: neither.

035. Rock or Rap: both.

036. Country or Screamo: both.

037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: 5566. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! eh laugh eh.

038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: christina.

039. Night or Day: both.

040. Sun or Moon: both.

041. TV or Internet: Both.

042. Playstation or xbox: playstation!

043. Kiss or hug: hugs.

044. Iguana or turtle: iguana.

045. Spider or bee: spider.

046. Fall or spring: both.

047. Limewire or iTunes: limewire.

048. Soccer or baseball: soccer.

049. Eating: edible.

050. Drinking: minum milo anda jadi sihat dan kuat! nolar. coffee.

051. Excitement level: level 10 dengan kuasa ghaib keeboy 91ers.

052. I'm about to: feed my lazy cat with steroids.

053. Listening to: the power rangers soundtrack. power chords giler! teehee.. ^_^V

054. Plan for today: buat reading log dan mengbelog untuk pembaca setia.

055. Waiting for: coldplay to come to msia.

056. Energy Level: due ratus lapan puluh tujuh peratus. *yatta!*

057. Thinking of someone: kawan-kawan di merata dunia. hur hur hur...

058. Want kids?: tak nak. *muka mengada*

059. Want to get married?: erm.. tak berape minat buat skang. *muka mengada 2897312%

060. When?: ish. kan dah kater tak nak! *muka cimb*

061. How many kids do you want: tak paham bahase. benci!

062. Any name on the mind: aznil nawawi. tom tom bak bersamer abang aznil! *pew weeeet!*

063. What do you want to do: nak gi shopping kat pavillion. kedai giordano kan ader diskaun. teehee..

065. Mellow future or wild: i nak liar macam si tigger kat kartun beruang pooh! teehee.. ^^V

066. Something you would never try: erm.. kontrol censem kat depan awek i. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

067. When do you want to die: ish..

068. Lips or Eyes: nak mater macam bered pittS ngan bibir cam anjelina joli! seksi diorang kat dalam citer tuan dan puan smith.

069. Romantic or Funny?: kelakar. tak best ar kalo asyik beromen jek kan?

070. Shorter or Taller?: i tak kisah sebab i pun tak lah tinggi sampai maner. *malu* teehee..

072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: i suker pompuan yang spontan. cute gilerrrr! teehee.. ^^V

073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: kalau boleh i nak nice... teehee.. *malu*

074. Sensitive or Loud?: dua-dua kena balens.

075. Hook-up or Relationship?: relationship.

076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: good mix of both.

077. Muscular or normal: insignificant.

078. Kissed a stranger: no.

079. Broken a bone: dislocated my spine. so no i havent broken a bone.

080. Lost glasses or contacts: belum pernah lagi.

081. Ran away from home: sekali je.

082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: no.

083. Killed somebody: no.

084. Broken some one's heart: hopefully not.

085. Had your heart broken: we live we learn.

086. Been arrested: no.

087. Cried when someone died: yes.

088. Liked a friend more than a friend: *looks at ground and kicks imaginary dust*

089. Yourself: love myself. surelah ade. teehee..

090. Miracles: takes place at the most unexpected of times.

091. Love at first sight: only happens to one in a million. unless youre delusional all the time.

092. Heaven: upstairs.

093. Santa Claus: is struggling with Atkins. its the potatoes. its always the potatoes. *sighs*

094. Tooth Fairy: was made up to fool ignorant white kids and asian anglophiles. just like the SATs.

095. Kiss in the first date: *yawns*

096. Angels: twelve.

097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? : no.

098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? : yes.

099. Do you believe in God? : yes.

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

ten people

proud in our roots

bundle

recently, i'm blue, yeah,lazy to blog wit malay. perhaps english does an easier job

Yesterday, i have gone to Penang to do my look-forwarded shopping, thinking to buy stuff for myself to be dressed up during uni registration. My objective was to maximise the usages of my minimum amount of money, with quality and quantity purchase as the conditions.

i have spent my whole day in Queensbay. Anyway, i didnt feel interested in any shops. every shop offered the same things, same colour, same fashion, and same promotion. The centre was juz full with the duplication of a few shops. Walking for the whole day, until it was almost time to leave, so that I could rush for the last bus to go back home, however, I felt reluctant to leave. It was not because I shop until reluctant to leave; It was juz simply becoz I couldnt buy anything. OMG, MAN, am i still ME? y such a person like me, who is always mad of shopping couldnt buy anything?

Perhaps I have successfully coped and dealed with the desire of spending money.

Wit the thought of not going to lose my transport money, Lastly, I decided to buy a super-value shoes. HEHE, first pair of Timberland in my life, wit the age of 18. HEHE, I’m juz a bit excited about it. As i only wore once in my life.

Look forward to wear it, ANYWAY, i doubt where i can wear it to? when i’m going to shop? no, it is too tired. Going to class? isn’t it a bit not compatible with the occasion? let me think think. I’ll find a solution. keke. well, definitely, i prefer to be TALLER, though my height is added on by the heels. Well, i don realli mind, if i do look taller.

ANYWAY, i did not buy any clothes for the registration. first in life, so far i can rmb. n almost no chance to buy for it. I’ll only be back n walk into the shopping lots a month after registering… hopefully another super super sales r waiting for me.

Lastly, Happy SCHOOLING again. to me, and to all my frens.

P/s the objective of this blog is recording some of the first in my life. AND to let u all noe I’M STILL ALIVE. I din online, but I’m still surviving

Hehe. C ya soon. I miss U, people.

stpm

photo : was stolen by me from syauqey's blog.. wahahaha

Sometimes when I am so free until I feel bored of carrying out my USUAL daily activities, I would start thinking. Thinking of how would I look like today IF I were to choose further my edu in STPM.

Definitely there’s a great difference.

I guess I would be warmer , to the ppl around me.

I guess I would behave more kindly and friendly towards everyone, at least would not show up my not-smiling face every moment.

I guess my life would continue just as I were still in tuanku jaafar science school, just as nothing has changed much.

I guess I would have a lot of new frens and I would be willing to open my heart for them.

I guess I would go for tuition classes everyday, continue the very boring life of studies so deadly and so struggling.

I guess we would still be fren.

I guess I would not grow up as much as I am now, living independently n doing my roomholds on my own, no doubt.

I guess my eyes would scan for every single figure who look alike with that fellow when I am to loiter in the shopping complexes. Don mean to hav it, but juz to see it far away and it reminds me the part of my life.

I guess I may feel distant wit my best frens, and indeed distant. On the ground of everyone of us are apart frm each other, our relationships stay unchanged juz as we never apart. Our hearts are so close, when we meet, eventhough it’s once a few months. I guess, if everyone of u leaves and I stay at the same place, we would change regardless of we want it or don’t.

I guess I may get wat I want long ago, in the way I want.